THINKING #2

So not a great deal is happening in my life at the moment Steven and Tamara and now engaged! :) so happy for them, um so i am a bridesmaid for two of my girls now. one wedding is december this year and the other is in august 2009! :) the last blog i wrote in here was about trying to keep the suprise away from deon about his trip to melbourne for his birthday. I am so proud of myself i was able to hold myself in and not give him any clues about the trip. we went down there it was freezing and rainy, but spending time with Ainslie and Cam was just alot of fun. I am very happy that deon has got family that i get along with and can call one of my best girlfriends.
i am havign a bit of a rough time at the moment, deon and i have had our two year anniversary in may, but for the last two years we have been doing the same thing, only seeing each other every weekend, hoenstly i don't know how we have done it but i think in a funny way it has made us closer and has made us trust each other for the fact we aren't always there and in each others pockets. but just recently i have wanted to move in with him, i see all my girlfriends moving in with their partners getting engaged. I am no way saying that i want a ring now, i am just thinking after two years i feel like we are stuck in a rut, i love him to death really do but i want to move foward in our relationship than just sitting and waiting for a sign or something to tell him it is the right thing to do. he wants to take things slow but i don't know this sometimes like it is too slow. i gotta try and understand he is just trying to protect himself from being hurt once again. after two years though you would have some kind of idea that the person you are with isn't the same person that has hurt you in the past, from what i have gathered from other peoples tales of this ex, seems like i am the total oppisite to her. deon and i don't fight, i get along with all of his mates, and they seem to come to me for a little bit of advise with few things. maybe he thinks that it is too good to be true, which it isn't well i hope not, i have found my other half i just gotta wait till he realises that it i am the right one.
new job is going well, kelly (one of the girls and i go shopping a fair bit in our lunch times normally we come back with shoes, a handbag or makeup) it isn't good working in the city for that reason shopping is just there just a matter of doing it.
um so i best be getting back to work. i will blog another day. if anyone has any suggestions about my whole boy thing feel free to say, i am doing my head in thinking about it.